First of all, this will be a great week in the history of our country -- Martin Luther King Day and Barack Obama's inauguration. Are you kidding me? I feel something great coming!!Over the weekend, I was voted dorm rep. Basically that means I have to babysit 22 grown drug-addicted and alcoholic men. I wonder how they made it through boot camp. But then I have to remember. No. 1 Not everyone is a Marine. No. 2 Some of them are stressed out from combat. No. 3 Drugs and alcohol are very strong. No. 4 I am and will not ever be perfect.
I have been sober for 14 days now. And I will be going on after January 29th to a long-term treatment program (details to follow). Where I am now is more like a long-term detox. I'm getting something out of this place, but I feel that the time is too short to trust these people with my real emotions. It's hard -- it's very hard -- to hold in the true feelings I have going on. I have a couple of pals going also so I'll have a fishing buddy or two when i get to my next treatment program.
Oh one more thing in case you are wondering. I am doing a great deal of jerking off. I have to be careful not to get caught by my roommate. He's a very crusty construction worker from the Bronx, who just finished working on Yankee Stadium.
Goodbye from rehab. Love, Rod
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You sound really good, Rod. I'm not sure how to explain it, it's just the clear way you're laying your thoughts out, and there's something very positive about how you're describing your struggle. You sound strong and determined, but not unrealistic. It's a good sign that you were voted dorm rep, too.
I laughed when I read that you have to be discreet about the "great deal" of jerking off you are doing, and yes, I was wondering! Thanks for the picture!
Keep up the good work. I think it says a lot for you that they've put you in charge of all these people.
Surely your "room mate" has to jerk off too or does he have other ways to relieve sexual frustration?
Rod: a buncha other marines + you + jerking off?
Dude, don't tease.
(Wishing you the best Rod)
Hey dude, just started reading your blog. I really hope for the best, and I'm glad that you admitted yourself in this residential program. I'm actually a substance abuse counselor myself and I know first hand that it's hard to do something like this, especially voluntarily. Most of my patients are court ordered. It's great that you're doing something now before you hit rock bottom. All you can do now is bring yourself up, so keep working hard.
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