I posted a blog earlier this week that got 'lost' so I'm putting this up again. It was stuck in 'draft' and I just realized it.
I mentioned in the last blog that I was voted dorm rep of our floor. The job obviously paid nothing and there are no other monetary rewards. But there are some rewards, like helping other people get adjusted to dorm life. And it keeps me busy.
Unfortunately, I've run into a bit of trouble. In the current group of guys there are only 4 Caucasian, out of the 22 men in the dorm. Who cares, right? we are all here to get sober. When I first got here, we had an AA meeting about honesty. I sat-up to speak and proclaimed that I was uncomfortable that 'n-word' was being thrown around here like it was on the streets. The dorm rep at the time got up and walked out. Ever since then he made me the target of reverse racism. Ordering me around and other shit that I took with a grain of salt until I heard him talking in the bathroom about 'white motherfucker this' and 'white motherfucker that.' He was shocked when I confronted him. Others said he was surprised that the skinny white boy didn't take his shit. My father taught me to stand up for myself.
I'm not nor will I ever be a racist. I have had many interracial relationships. There's something about a darker skin that I find very attractive. I've always been that way.
This guy -- black, white, purple or green -- is in the top ten all-time lying assholes that I ever met in my life. He's always saying shit about his cars, money, his degrees, but he's been in this rehab program at least six times. And who knows about other rehab programs. But there's plenty of evidence, from his own mouth, that he's flat broke.
Most of the guys here don't think of me as a white dude, they accept me as a person. Hopefully, with this new beginning in our nation, we can all move forward.
Love, Rod
Sunday, January 25, 2009
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Wow. I'll say one thing about you being in rehab: Your posts have gotten much longer! They're also very interesting to read, hearing about your experiences there. I think it's great that you were frank with them about how that word made you uncomfortable. That's exactly the sort of non-whiny thing that's worth being honest about. Sorry to hear there was such a puzzling reaction from the asshole. I hope in spite of that that you are leaving having made a few "fishing buddies". (Blow buddies would be nice too!)
Your white I am shocked I never knew that ;-p
I myself was raised color blind. never tripped on that shit. I tripped of of the actions of a individual rather than what they looked like.
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